New Pages: November 2004

Saturday, November 27, 2004 is recent me. fatty and happy~

Friday, November 26, 2004

Fietsen naar Oost

Postcard from Sweden,
it's sent by YinFang. She was in Sweden's Design Center dated 8th Nov 2004 [so it took 8 days for a postcard travelling east!]
...what a vibrant postcard! thanks dear!

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Hello....r u there?

I don't understand...
sometimes I think I know people...
but then I realized I know them nothing...
is it possible that people change within days...months...
I just wish it's still that easy to talk and discuss on something
why is it so difficult?

Is it me or you make it difficult?

Or am I getting slower?

Ik begrijp u niet! But I'm still here to listen, friend!

Happy Thanksgiving

In the other part of this world, it’s Thanksgiving Day.
No, it’s nothing to do with Indonesian is completely American.
But, nothing wrong to be thankful and remembering how many blessings we’ve been granted within this year...
Yes, one may say, and then you should be thankful each day...
! Agree!

Yet, marking a day and making it as a stop to review our previous days, by not seeing the failures, but counting every single tiny miracle in our life.
It is more then ‘making a day’ but ‘building confidence’ by thanking and grateful of every small miracles in life.

I’m talking to myself.

...counting my miracles...I just realized how I’ve been brought to this day in luxurious ways...

PS: My big sis, Olive, cooked 7 dishes for thanksgiving!!! Woohoo!! Mariska’s First Thanksgiving

Morning Has Broken...New Day to Get Through

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
Trying to stay awake and remember my name
Because everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Because everybody's changing
And I don't feel right...


J'ai changé, mais à quelle direction ?

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Cadeautje vanuit Delft!

I just back from swimming in the morning, couple minutes ago, found a package from Delft on my table...!!!
it's from my lovely YinFang....the Taiwanese girl, my ex-neighbour at RolandHolstlaan, my Italy trip partner and my friend's girlfriend...

Want to know what is inside?
1. CD Keane: Hopes and Fears....we both love this album....we were even trying to search on internet, and ended up finding other Keane...
2. My Favorite Tea!!!! Pickwick Evening Breeze....i love it, i love it!!!
3. a very sweet card...with her handwritings on it of course....

Do Xie Yin Fang, Ni Dai Hau Liau....hehehehhe....
Thanks dear....I am really really super duper Happy!!!
You make my day!!!


Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Dus Terug Naar Werk~

Back to work and all sounded-busy-things-to-do

Yesterday, Monday.
Started my day emailing peoples, applying for grant from GASS3, hoping I can get one…well at least to reimburse my travel cost to Singapore.
Booked my ticket to Singapore, will pay tomorrow.
And started working with Senen Analysis on computer…darn, I was so slow, I guess I haven’t recovered from last week vacation mode…
In the afternoon I went to TAC [Transforming Asian Cities] spin-off exhibition in ITB [Institut Teknologi Bandung]. Long story behind it…and I don’t have any mood to talk about it…
anyway...Angga asked me to take some picture, this is one of it.

Then I was introduced to Yann, the French guy who has been in Indonesia for one year. He is doing his internship now for 4 months in PSUD-Bandung. He was in UGM for one year…I think as exchange student.
Thus, no wonder he speak Indonesian fluently.
Conversation was serious topic in the beginning, bitching on Rem Koolhaas…well…it’s normal within architecture students…
After awhile I think he got bored—so did I!—talking serious things…after introducing him to more friends, Oky and Peter were around too, we had better conversation…and within minutes he could claim me ‘bitchy????!!!” what the heck…!
Soon he tried to explain that bitchy was equaled to provocative….
Deu…ok ok…whatever.
Then I sent him to CCF [French Cultural Center], on the way he was complaining and telling stories about his life in Indonesia…I guess he loves this country [instead I said I don’t like Paris after he said Parisian is not smiley…oh btw, he is Parisian…hehe]

Went back home…I was tired
Went to sleep really early

Today, Tuesday.
Chatting with Sphinxku. Was really bouncy at the beginning, until an unexpected email came, and turned the mood up side down. Darn~ [in Sphinxku tone]
I wish I could be there for her, sometimes life is funny,
As you are not longing for something, it will hunt you…
But as you start liking it…it will turn you down…

Victor came around 10:30 AM, it was raining outside [Bandung started to rain again…thanks God!], we went to carpenters to order window and door frames for a house in Dago. Then further, went to building material shop, checking for prices.
Afterwards, lunch.

Was busy the whole day with kompetisi Senen. Trying to figure out something…suddenly SMS from Oky, Peter just found something useful for the competition, he asked to meet after IAAU meeting this afternoon…
IAAU MEETING???? I didn’t know that!
Well long story, but then after several confirmation, I knew the meeting for Alumnae reunion arrangement, would take place in campus at 4:30 PM

Went to campus for meeting.

Discussion with Oky and Peter at Q, we are heading somewhere…but still waiting for digital map, they said tomorrow it will be there. Gaaf!

Meanwhile, remember the postponed project? The newtown in Samarinda?
Guess what, they [the municipality] asked to finish the interim report within this December….damn! they postponed to May, and now they want it again on December???? Am I Houdini or what?

Lazy Week...

When did the last time I wrote my Blog?
Well anyway, I’ll just pack my—or may I say, our national—one week vacation, due to Eid [Suikerfeest or Lebaran] last Sunday, 14th November [D day]
Oh I did write something in between those days didn’t I?


I went for discussion with Peter and Oky for Senen competition at Rani’s house. Her parents weren’t around. They [Rani and others] prepared they own meal, canned fish with soya bean, canned minced pork, lap chiong, ham and rice…I arrived around 3PM.
The road were sooooo empty, nice...i love the traffic!

D day

my sis and family came, I’ve written something bout that. Well there’s nothing on in the city, due to this big Moslem event. It’s normal.

vivienne, my sis [nat] and wie


Bandung: View from Sierra Cafe and Resto

hmm..what did I do…oh I drove at 4:30 AM to station, picking up Norman. On the way I almost hit 2 persons…!Good grief, nothing bad happened, I think I was still half asleep. Afterwards I continue my sleep, the weather was mild and it’s lazy environment… At nite went out with Wie, Nat, Vivienne and Victor to Sierra…we needed to q up to be seated.
Jakartanese were packing Bandung.


went to CiWalk with Wie, Nat, and Vivienne and Hasnah…what a day. The baby loved that place a lot I supposed…she was running all around, poor Hasnah tried so hard to catch her up!

Hasna and Vivi at CiWalk

At first we planned to go out for dinner, but it was too late and everyone was tired after long day at CiWalk…

hehe…well we started our day quiet late…around 11:00, having lunch at Nyonya Rumah before CiWalk.
The traffic was cramped! Every 10 cars, there were around 8 Jakarta’s cars…


atmosphere cafe and resto

them at niece loves to pick her nose....!!!

I’m not really sure what I did in the morning, all I remember at nite we went out for dinner, Nat, Wie, Vivienne and Norman at Atmosphere…nice place, pity, we ended at wasted space, next to the kitchen…since almost nice spots were reserved…I supposed those people from outside Bandung….


after news from radio, traffic at Puncak [village on the way back to Jakarta from Bandung] was jammed, totally stopped.
FYI, Puncak means Peak…so the roads are steeps and meandering…
my Sis was worrying already, they planned to go back to Jakarta early in the morning next day. But for today, we went to Lembang, just a ‘village’ 1,5 hrs driving from home…also cramped with cars…Jakarta cars hehehe….

posed after tired running around in Lembang [ photos by Nat]

Some incidents happened…well you know, kids…they sometimes become cranky, insist their wishes, and cry when those wishes not granted. So inside the car, environment was a bit tense…My sis wanna go to buy some more cakes for presents…the shop is nearby office, I decided to walk to office and buy some breads for Victor. Robert and Deny were around too…
Norman left at 7PM for Semarang, he should start his placement at Obgyn section this week [from this Sunday]… will be a tough one as he said…
Budi sent Norman to the station. Everyone went to sleep early, cause my sister and family would leave really early morning.


oh...I miss her! [ photos by Nat]

They left at 3:30 AM! Gosh….
All of sudden, house was so quiet, no Vivienne’s screams and talks…no sis and bros stroll around…strange…
But Susan came with Susilo [her husband], they were lucky coz the traffic was much milder then previous days. We went out for lunch and again…CiWalk…gosh….I started to get tired with this place. Oh ya…we went with Susi of course, she was Susan’s roommate in Delft…[both of them were in Delft with me, they left also this year]

Susan with Susilo at background

Dinner at Susi, her mom cooked perfectly, thanks Tante…enak banget sate bloranya…mau lagi dong….they have great innercourt with lots of plants….!
Afterwards we sent Susi to Semarang, her cousin’s would get married the next day [Saturday]…then three of us [Susan, Susilo, and me] had some jagung baker at Dago…hmmm nice..
Both of them felt tired, they also should attend a wedding next day [that’s why they came to Bandung]…


Senen meeting at Ruku [Rumah Buku; Rani and Oky’s bookstore…nice place with great collections] at 9AM…at midday Andre [another friend from bachelor] came, we went for lunch at Q [Rani’s Café…gosh she runs lots of things!]. Then Victor came along, afterwards Edo…woohoo, he became more wealthier [hahaha…on the size of belly]

He asked me to cut his hair…hehehehe….well…I haven’t done that for long since I came back from Nederlands….I should admitted, the result not that good….shame on me…I hope Edo was not upset….hehehehe…. sorry, Do, but you are naturally handsome, so no worries hahahahaha….
Late afternoon, went to BSM with Victor…met so many friends! Pri and Maria, Jane [Victor’s classmate since kindergarten and my schoolmate in Senior High School], Tata [well, she soon become superstar, she and her bros just launched their album. The band named NUMATA…cool!] and later on the way back…we met Toma and Yenny, they will get married on 19th December.
FYI, there’ll be three weddings on this day, Toma-Yenny, Ekoy [Victor’s best friend] and Oek, four of them were in the same batch with me in University…

thus, everyone releases their single life….


Sunday….long day, but nice. Went to church early in the morning…started at 6 AM.
I dunno why, I was having anxiety attack. Was suddenly so nervous and reminded with many things that I want to forget…
I supposed Victor felt that, he was asking me during the service, but anyway…didn’t wanna discuss the stuff I’ve left behind…need to move on, don’t I?

Craving for Chinese Porridge…but the place we used to go had gone…and we don’t know where is it now. So was driving at 7:30 in the morning, looking for open porridge kiosk at China district… finally found one..the restaurant called ‘Eleven Seven’ huahahahha….corny…
But the porridge was good…
Went back home, I back to sleep, woke up at 10 doing nothing….having lunch at Istana Plaza…

I got a lovely present!!!!!!

At nite we had small barbeque in the office…it was on Robert and Cherry’s treat [long passed birthday]
Nice, Agus was there, and Robert’s girlfriend, Esti, too…

Went back home at midnite. Tired, went to sleep….

End of the whole week vacation, next day would be normal day again…busy street, school kids, and works.

Friday, November 19, 2004

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

Back To You

back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

over you I'm never over
over you something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away

back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
with your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that I'll see of you
it's the least that you could not do oh I will

leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
leave the light on for me too

"back to me
I know that it comes back to me
doesn't it scare you
your will is not as strong
as it used to be"

[John Mayer-Room For Square]


Ok..i've formatted my computer, now my CDWriter is not working...let see if the computer will still restart by itself while i'm writing on blogger.
i have no idea what's going on with my computer.
i've just tried to change from nero express to nero 5, but the nero 5 doesn't work, so i tried nero detects my F: Lite ON something something...but still cannot perform any of burning activities!
it says something like...'cannot perform end track' what's the hell was that ???
then ok...i tried to return to nero xpress, well who knows...maybe it's not the computer but softwares errors...
ok...but STILL!!!!!


so let's try windows cd writer wizard...still still still....

now I give up! something must be wrong with the CDwriter now...

I just dun wanna reformat the computer all over again! it means i need to download msn messenger and yahoo messenger once again!!! well don't laugh at me! this damn dial up really drive me crazy if i need to reinstall those stuff all over again....

oh...when will my country go broadband? while the whole world is spinning in this so called informational society...we are still crawling like a baby...

I'm not complaining, you people!!!! I'm talking about REALITY!!!Don't talk any of cathing up with the world.....there's tons TO DO!!!!!!


Monday, November 15, 2004

Een paar minuten voor morgen~

Once people told a little girl that she has problem in making decisions. She tends to break down a supposed-to-be-conclusion into more questions to answer, “you make things complicated! What’s the difficult to make choices? At the end it’s for you to choose!”, that’s what they said. Then it was ended up they valued her less. She felt as strange person, mislead, and again…she was questioning, “why should I stop my consideration, how can I change the fact that every single thing in this world bears a butterfly effect power? As for,” she continues on wondering, “…me, their saying for sure give me certain influence…”Will she stop questioning?

But never mind, let leave that girl with her own thought for now…
Well finally I finished my paper for GASS3, the one that I’ve been having hard time to complete—out of a ‘failure’ I’ve made…or, may I give a bit compliment to this failure as…as unfinished project?
That means I will definitely fly to Singapore for the symposium, well I should! I’ve paid, thou I haven’t bought my ticket…
Then should I go to KL? I really want to…I haven’t seen Malaysia before…and I’ve heard too many about Kuala Lumpur, one of the most exciting cities in Asia.

Simon will get married on 11th in Singapore, and the symposium will be ended on 7th. I don’t prefer to stay too long in Singapore, it’s shopping season and I’m pretty sure it will be too crowded over there…so maybe…between that dates, I’ll just stroll around KL for some snapshots and nice foods of course!
Wooh…travel plan always excites me!

And today…my sis, her daughter Vivienne and my bro in law, Wie, arrived for a 5 days vacation in Bandung. Jakarta life seems stressed them a lot…well maybe Vivienne has nothing to be stressed on, but I bet I have never seen her laughed her brain out like today, before.
They arrived around 8 AM and it was only 2 hrs driving from Jakarta [it’s normally take 3 hrs in minimum and 5 hrs when it’s really jammed]. Amazing, but reasonable. It is suikerfeest [Lebaran] today, end of Ramadhan, most people—well Moslems—stay at home with their families and acquaintances, so street were empty.

They looked happy as they arrived here, must be the weather as well. It’s nice weather, not too hot or too cold, and there’s morning breeze. So it’s wonderful.

They were so tempted to sleep; well that’s what I always feel after hectic weeks, catching up with schedule. So here you are, I have their picture…enjoying their sleep ;)
*ugh don’t let them know…they’ll hang me upside down hahahha…kidding*

Tomorrow, well today maybe…or is it tomorrow, but never mind…what is it in the date, rite?
My brother will come too, he’ll arrived in train station around 4:30 AM, so I promised him I’ll pick him up, but let see…well…a promise is a promise, isn’t it?
So I was most of the time accompany my sis and bro-in-law eating…woohoo…picture that!
I better watch my food, cause I’m like a balloon easily inflate…

And I end my day watching DVD…what a life…isn’t it?
Well recently, I’ve watched 2 movies…as for me; I got a kick out of them!
The first one was Monalisa Smile [the setting was around 1950s]… I like the whole idea, those for today, It’s the other way around. So many females are pursuing what they want, until at the end… in fact, it seems they don’t know what they are pursuing… ever watched Ally Mc.Beal? Well she is one of those surreal creatures…
While the second was Big Fish…well, don’t laugh me if I just watched it now! At least I did watch finally!!...hehe..
I love this movie… I love the whole thing, the story…the pictures…the actors…those stories inside this story…what an exciting life he’s been living on! I love the way he approached a problem, by introducing himself without prejudices towards the issues he confronted. [well, no one would like to be identified clearly sometimes…in order to reduce connections and can easily dismiss themselves…tell me if I’m wrong]

But out of the main role, I found one thing significant. Sandra. The love of his life. Well, as in the story, Ed is always away for business, every couple weeks. Amazing how she always be there, and truthfully keeping in love with him. In fact if I may say, if only Sandra wasn’t there…the whole stories will never there. Well, she did her major role in the whole scenery!
Anyway…I’m babbling.

But one thing I know from both of them is determination.
Have you ever so clear on what you want to do? No…isn’t it? There’s always condition where you were put into comparing condition, where there are so many destinations but there’s only one way ticket.
Yet, it seems there’s no less fun in each of those destinations, thou the journeys might be different, it just how we want to make it fun, extraordinary, fun and exciting life…

Isn’t it?

I’m babbling again….

Time to sleep,
Thanks for reading…
Tot andere keer!

catching him online...eindelijk. Arun most recent look, in London now...will tell you later more about him...first, post his picture! voila~

Friday, November 12, 2004


damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2004

oh dial up

too bad!
after several time crashed, i decided to ask for help.
Oky came for rescue, but at the end, it was abit messed up
we did reinstall the XP but forgot to save all registry...
now i need to reinstall all programs and download msn and yahoo again!!!
dial up....
takes forever~

hehe but then i have reason to post this blog...

~share with you~

SMILE (Though Your Heart Is Breaking)
Words by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons
Music by Charlie Chaplin for his play "Modern Times" 1936

Smile, though your heart is aching

Smile, even though it's breaking
when there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by...
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and there’ll be tomorrow
you’ll see the sun comes shining through for you….
Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear maybe ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
when there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
you’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

third try

What is it with my PC?
It’s twice today I tried to write on Blogger and each time blue screen appeared and dumping memory …something…
Anywiz, it was nice this morning, rainy and quiet.
School in front of my house is on vacation now, due to Lebaran [suikerfeest]
Well…so it’s really quiet…


And what is it with me that so difficult to finish my paper?

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Happy Belated birthday, Lisa

Oops..I forgot her birthday, it supposed to be on 7th November...
anyway, Happy Birthday Dear Lisa, wish you all the happiness in life...


smell like candy

have you ever remembered something while u sniff on something?
I smelled something really particular today, it smells like candy...certain flavour...

remind me of an incident,

which I want to forget.

have you ever heard, Forgive and Forget...?

maybe I did forgive...
but i just knew,
I couldn't forget yet.

Monday, November 08, 2004

my sweet niece, her name is Vivienne. The pic was taken by my 2nd sis, Natalia...

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Bandung-Jakarta-Bandung [6am-6pm trip]

A bit tired,
yet grateful inside.
Just back from site survey in Jakarta, for a competition at Pasar Senen.
A return trip with Oky and Peter; Oky drove Visto, and on the way back it was heavily raining, so the traffic was a bit daunting.
Met Andre [Oky’s brother] there, so it was full team first meeting.
What nice was the talks we had along the trip.
Positive and brainstorming.

I’ll soon go to sleep; tomorrow I’ll start my full-of-commitment week.
Another deadline to confront.

Saturday, November 06, 2004


I was trying my best to write on my blog directly on the blogger page, yet it didn’t work out. Either internet connection here was lousy or it just my computer was a bit cranky.
Well, so here what I did.
I wrote them down with Microsoft Word, and let see if I could paste it on my blog, since I have no idea why, I couldn’t get through further then my blog dashboard.


First thing, my FS and Masterplan project is postponed, not for 2 or 3 days as what Sphinxku thought…it’s till May 2005~
Well, in fact I’m a bit relieved. The schedule was too tight, and I found it nonsense to work on such big project within 2 months!
Well yeah it’s possible if I exclude the fact that there’s going to be around 100.000 extra people will live there, and I don’t need to be bothered with how the place will fit for them.
Yet, it seems as if that’s how it works.
Either a project from private developer or government, it runs in the same rules of game.
They don’t care on how the feasibility study or why and all the reasons behind it.
If they do ask us to make the FS, it’s only for the sake of ‘requirement’ to make the project acceptable by the ‘board of building regulation’—which I’m not sure they even care.

They won’t care if the FS is right or wrong, I even doubt if they really read it carefully.
Am I sounding too cynical?

But oh well, I think it’s not only in Indonesia. I heard from friend in Thailand, shit like this happens. And, I believe, as long as big money rules, these issues will never fade away.

So, here I am now, with extra months to work on the project, with data and budget shortage, I should find middle way for me to work it out, without being burdened by conflict between idealism and reality.

Secondly, I should be back with my paper for GASS3. Since I have more time and can stop working on that FS thingie, I should be able to fully concentrate on my paper. Crossing fingers, hoping that I could be able completely concentrate and manage to finish it ontime, and of course not as a crappy paper.

As if I’m not having enough things to do….

But I’m happy with it, as long as I’m enjoying my time doing those things.

Couple days ago, a friend asked me working on a competition…well let’s see, for now I can’t write too much yet about it, until it comes to form. The most important is, hopefully, if we won, we could gain some bucks.

Just an hour ago, I was back from Potluck with Susi—the Indonesian girl who was in Delft before. We talked on life over there, and some of our lives here.
It reminded me to my conversation online with Sari, when she said it’s better for me not keep comparing life here and there. Well, I’m not doing it any longer, thou sometimes during certain seconds, there’s faint memories that tickles me to remember my time over there.

I know for some people here in Indonesia,

we are sounding as snobs,
as if we were too ‘westernized’
and forgot anything good of our home country.

It’s not like that.

And it’s useless for me trying to explain it here…I just try to understand my friend’s feeling who also yearns to be back to our Dutch life.

This is not about complaining or whining.

It’s also understandable when peoples look annoyed as we started talking about our Dutch life or unconsciously comparing here and there.

Sincerely, I am really sorry if in any case I annoyed any of my friends here in Indonesia.

Yet, I’m building my daily life here,

standing firm on the ground, but still with head in the clouds.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

the girl in red pants is birthday today...happy bday Nati!

oh how i suddenly miss this crowd! look at that cutie guy in pink on far right....

Another Friend

Nicky and me at Central Park, early morning in February 2004

I just got a phonecall this morning, from a far distance friend. He is a friend I’ve known since I was in university, well in specific, it was during our internship in Sanur-Bali, around 1997 if I’m not wrong.
It is always nice talking with him, a kind of ironic and sarcastic person, yet uplifting and fun.
He left Bandung earlier then me. I think it was year 2000 when he left to Baltimore for a job. And until now, he is still stuck there… I right, Nick?
Having interest on same issue must be the reason why we click and easily talk to each other. After he left Bandung for job, I had not met him till this year in February, when I went to States to see my new baby niece in Texas and on the way back to Netherlands I stopped over in New York.

Well, I was on my own trip, and he was only 4 hrs away from NY.
In fact, I was successfully drag him down to NY just right after his working hour that Friday. Hahahaha….well, he has promised me that he would see me while I was in New York!
So it was 4 years after he left! We talked till 3 AM hahaha…seems soooooooo many things to talk about.

Since couple days before I was in dreadful working dilemma and suddenly this morning I was thinking to talk to him, since I always feel convenience to discuss our ideology-reality conflicts with him. Thus, having his phonecall was a big surprise~

He was curious also about my life here… After all the dilemmas I faced on my last few months in Europe, I think it was really nice of him still consider how am I doing right now.

While writing down, I know I’m sounding too sentimental …hahaha…..well, whatever, I’m happy and grateful remembering how lucky I am, to treasures friends like them.

~cooling down~

You Raise Me Up-Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up To more than I can be.

There is no life– no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up To more than I can be.

[life is up and down...but not alone when i'm down]

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Happy Birthday Norman!!!

This is my lil brother...well not little anymore, today he is 24.
A medical student who is now busy in local hospital in Semarang [it's not nearby Bandung...if Bandung in West Java, Semarang is in Center Java]
Still single, I guess he's been too busy with his study...or is he too picky hehe...

Talking to him is always nice, since he loves to read [others then those medical latin terms for sure]...

What I have as his bday presents, you asked? well well...just records of Tim Tamashiro and Putumayo series on French Cafe. Those are his type of music. Quite similar with mine.

Wish you all the best in your life, happy and joyful days, that's the most important...
and of course [in short term] success on your Psychiatric Exam...damn, not easy huh?

Happy Birthday, Bro!

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Here's the location of that FS and Masterplan project...well i haven't 'printscreen' the latest work..will do that tomorrow.


Why it's named deadline? a line of dead? hehe..well, in some sense it's quiet wrong.
For us, those who used to work over nite catching up with schedule, deadline most of the time, keeps them alive. For the matter of fact, that's true, thou some of them become 'zombified' a bit empty look, staring at computer and clicking mouse.

well...I'm having 2 deadlines at the same time now.

The first one is our project, sort of urban design project, but with Feasibility Study and Proposal Masterplan for a c.a.50ha housing area...
oh well, dealing with sort of project ain't as glamorous as it's sounding...
lack of data, and distance with location [it's in other island: Kalimantan, my base is in Bandung: time I'll post my location map]...sort of tiring and time consuming....
yet, I'm still amused everytime there's new finding... well...small achievement you can say...

the other one is nothing to do with design, it is just my desperation to keep on writing, which push me to continue on reading.
There's this conference GASS 3 in NUS [Singapore], which I plan to submit my paper. The title is Impact of Port Development of Spatial Organisation and Urban Culture, case on Makassar Innercity [historical center]

Well, now you know why I was so happy as I saw postman walked thru my gate bringing a big white envelope with TUDelft logo on it. It's the package from Sari! usual...i always need small excitement to keep me up with my works...otherwise me as an easy-get-bored-lady just stop in the middle, whining and not finishing my work... they are...!
I'm working and I accomplished my 'today target' for the urban design project...
well really looking fwd to finish my paper as well!!!

Just back from outing with 3 friends....was nice, with lots of laughs! amazing how happy feeling can cure headache!

here is dear buddy! Devisari Tunas...hehehe...we have one similarity, slordig identify we are still alive, we--at least once in 2 days--need to bump to something; bed, tables, window frame, shelves hahahaha.....ahhh..miss you alot, Sari!!!!


la question urbaine finally in my hand!!!!
thanks to my sweet dear Sari, a precious friend i miss alot....muach muach, thanks darling!
though it's only copy version [well, sorry Mr. Castells, they make it so difficult for me to get the original version...], and only part one [Sari made her effort to copy till chapter four, that's magnificent!] but it's really pulling my enthusiasm again to continue on my paper...

well, ok, and another finding on AI works...i've struggled the whole nite to refine a DWG work in AI...and it was so damn slow for my's hard work...
then just in the morning, granted such a big blessing by God, then suddenly a new finding just help me manage to compact a whole nite work in couple hours...hehe....well....nothing is useless, whole nite effort finally leads to something...

ok, that's for now...ach..magnificent!

merci beau coup Sari!

Monday, November 01, 2004

After this you'll find some of my sweet memories of 15 days in Italy [August 2004]with Danly and Yinfang, those which keep on bouncing in my head

i have the small picture of this, while we were posing...danly took our moment...such a nice series of sweet memories in Italy

me..taken by yinfang, on our 'strange' lunch in verona

yinfang with her 'ham~!' ohhhhhh

Sky of Tuscany...where time stands still. A picture taken from top of around 1000 years campanile in Archidosso.

l'age de raison

should you blame yourself if you reason on things?
well yes if it stop you from moving forward, or at worst...drag you down to drain.

that's why I've decided to delete all my past blog-postings
too many issues attached me from move on
drag me back each time I want to leap forward.

this is a brand new page..thou they still remain in me and sometimes bounce to surface just to tickle me a bit.

it just the phase of life where people questioning theirselves, i believe.
as i believe also God creates things with their own times.
so, why should I bother if this is the moment for me to take a step back, rethink then buried them deep down..and go for new pages.

life is waiting...

and today i still believe,
each moment is created to form a person.
and here i start continue to the next chapter.