New Pages: January 2005

Sunday, January 30, 2005

When you're down and troubled
and you need a helping hand
and nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name,
and you know whereever I am
I'll come running, oh yeah baby
to see you again.

Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
all you have to do is call
and I'll be there,
You've got a friend.

If the sky above you
should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
and soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer or fall
all you got to do is call
and I'll be there

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend?

People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Oh babe, don't you know that,
Winter spring summer or fall,
Hey now, all you've got to do is call.
Lord, I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

[Carole King]

'remembering my dear friends, wishing I can fly'

Sunday, January 23, 2005

traditioneel huwelijk

We; Victor, Robert, Pepen and me; ride 4 hrs to Kuningan to attend Chery's wedding.
He was Victor's and my highschool classmate, and also in the same faculty with four of us.
It was traditional wedding, with lots of rituals, too many nice pictures to put on...but these pictures will tell you more stories.

in the car, after wedding mass at church St. Borromeus,
below were 'injek telor', metaphors of good marriage, to serve [each other].

Chery was abit ill. But see how big the bride's smile!

Groom's jasmine necklace for Pepen; wishing him to get a girlfriend soon.
And here we are...just few friends that had chance to attend this superb wedding.
Congratulation Chery and Ida!

Wednesday, January 19, 2005


9 hrs driving from Bandung to Jakarta.
>> 3 hrs to get into Cikampek, the rest q-ing on the highway
Jakarta was flooded…
Siapa suruh datang Jakarta, I sang along.

this was scenery on the highway, you get everything there...

q behind my car engine was off... I saw a little boy peeing by the road

waiting for the q, i even had enough time to play with my ixus500

My appointment was supposed to be in the morning, 9:30. Rescheduled to 5:00 PM. Lucky enough I wasn't trapped in flooded area, in general, traffic in the city was much milder than what I experienced from Bandung to Jakarta...or may I say...around 15km to Jakarta?

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

vermoeien rust

It wasn’t a good night sleep.
I kept awake half way, every one or two hours…
My phone rang on 6:30 AM.
Hello, did I wake you up?
Ach, it’s Mom…as usual, she is my morning call.
Anyway, I was half awake already—or even haven’t slept, maybe?
Her conversation was about usual things,
Yesterday, Mega—my cousin, she is a year younger than me—was proposed.
His boyfriend’s whole family came to ‘ask’ her…
Ugh..where was your conversation leading to, Mom?
Good for her, she must be happy, I said lightly…
I never keen to talk much about my cousin’s life.

Did some exercise, I was ready to work.
Got my car a general checkup;
Engine was adjusted for Premium from Pertamax…
Got it washed thoroughly, too.
It should be ready for my first time driving to Jakarta from Bandung alone, tomorrow.

Preparing things for tomorrow meeting with Pak Jo,
also list of work for Dimas.

Went home, reading sphinxku blogs…seeing her soaking in bathtub really make me envy!
Masa’ saya harus berendam di bak mandi? Hahahaha...
I promised my self, next time I build my ownhouse, it should be with bathtub installed.
He that always gives way to others will end in having no principles of his own—Aesop
~Monk’s status on MSN, how are you Phil?~

Monday, January 17, 2005

it's not new song,
I just can't help keep humming it...

This is a call to the color-blind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind a horizon line
Tried to be something true

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?
I've shed this skin that I've been chipping at
And I've never quite returned

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll glady go down in a flame
If the flame's what it takes to remember my name

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now
[Bigger then My Body, John Mayer]

Sunday, January 16, 2005

luie wormen

So difficult to wake up today.
Went to church at Pandu, it’s been a long time not having service at this church.
It’s in the neighbourhood of Victor’s childhood home.
After service, we bought Ambokueh for breakfast.
Completely a lazy day, I was lying in front of TV, switching between channels.
Having lunch at Pizza Hut, strolled for awhile at BSM.
Afterwards, stopped over at office, we did some cleaning.
O yes! We don’t have office boy, so we are owner plus…cleaning service.
Then here I am, updating my blog.
Soon I’ll off to bed, or maybe read abit of ‘Orang-orang Bloomington’ by Budi Darma.
Oops, just got SMS from Pak Jo, rescheduling meeting for Wednesday. Too bad I don’t have credit in my mobile, can’t reply for now…

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Gellukig Verjaardag Mommy!

I’ve set my alarm at 5:30 AM. It’s my Mom’s birthday. I called her, she sounded happy. Her café is in a local newspaper, one page news, entitled “Kafe Mama Utamakan Makanan Sehat” [Mama Café: Healthy Food as Priority]. The news is a blessing for her café. Daily income was increased significantly. Good, I’m happy for you Mom!
I fell asleep again, then I heard Susan came in, I woke up. Went out, greeted Eka—as I promised—and took shower.

Susan was preparing breakfast and snacks for our trip to Bandung. Susan was going to attend her friend’s wedding, while Susi and Eka returning home.
Around 09:30, Susi’s back from her office family day.
10:30 something, we left for Bandung, in general traffic was good. Just some queue at highway construction area in Purwakarta and Plered.

Reached Bandung around 02:30 PM, they drove me to office.
Everyone was still there, except Robert.
I wasn’t in the mood for working, it’s end of day and it’s Saturday!
At night, Victor and me went for Black Coffee Bar, he’s promised to bring me there. It’s a nice place…just a little bit noisy.
Susan called, they just left the party, and asked us where to meet. Up to you, I said.

It’s weekend, it’s easier for my Visto to look for parking then their big car.
Thus, we went for Serabi Imut at Setiabudhi.
Man, the place was fully packed. Our orders were served 40 minutes after!
Then, we say goodbye and see you later.
Victor was still hungry, we stopped at hawker near my house, for a seafood. I didn’t eat anything…too full. Suddenly, a half drunk junkie came to our table, asking for ‘donation for Aceh’ saying things like ‘our friends are in sorrow, you should do something, give some money’. DAMN!!!! I couldn’t say a thing…I still can smell his alcoholic breath.

Then I went home, sleep…still thinking of that junkie, and maybe even hundreds or thousands people like that taking advantage on others’ grief.

Friday, January 14, 2005

een kleine werld

As planned, I left Bandung for Jakarta at 7:30 AM, by train.
Looking for my seat, I found I sat with a lady, long black hair and looks mobile.
Haven’t got my morning caffeine, thus I ordered black-coffee.
I asked to make sure, that they wouldn’t put any sugar in my coffee—I just don’t like black coffee with sugar.
When my coffee came, the meal that lady ordered was served as well.
Suddenly she asked me why I bothered to ask coffee without sugar—then I know she was in Germany for quiet a time, since she had that habit too: black coffee no sugar.
Ok..well, I was in Netherlands for 2 years, I explained, but since before I’ve loved my coffee without sugar, unless it’s cappuccino or iced coffee; yet I’m not used to order them.
Who knows black coffee no sugar could keep us talked until we reached our Gambir?
And what fascinating is she was a closed friend of Pak Daud Minwari, a teacher of mine in university, and a good friend of Victor’s Dad.
During our conversation I found her ‘bijzonder’ instead of only unique and special, she is also easy to talk with any topics, foods, works, carpentry, interior, management, etc etc…
Reached Gambir at exactly 10:15, Ce Nat was there with Vivienne. My cute niece had never seen train. Captivated, she kept asking her mom, and later her dad, to take her go by train…Believe me, it’s not easy to keep her away—even for awhile—when she is fascinated by something.
Around 11:00, Ce Nat drove me to Bina Musika at Kyai Tapa. Andrea called me to meet him there. It’s a music school owned by this attractive lady, Neneng. Later on I knew for Andrea that she is around 40 something!!! Her appearance really deceived me, what an gorgeous woman.
I was chit chatting with Andrea for a while, it’s been long since I left Delft. Then 12:30 PM we left for an appointment with Kandi at Taman Anggrek.
What surprised me to meet Andri over there too. I thought he was still in Hong Kong. Oh.. He is a friend I know from Andrea and Sari, one of their closed friends in Leuven-Belgium.
Had lunch at Nando’s, talked here and there, then we waited Pak Jo for couple …errr… hours…
But it’s worthed. The discussion was an enlightment. We made scheduled to meet again this coming Wednesday…that means I will go again to Jakarta!
It’s afternoon, around 6:00PM.
Andrea had appointment with Neneng at Chianti Resto at Mega Kuningan. I just joined him. Oh btw, he gave me a bottle of Torres, my favorite Spanish red wine. He also brought the last piece of Urban Question copy Sari has made for me…thanks darling!
Hence, I got some chance to talk for awhile with this lady. She is fun, has so many to talk about. Makes people easy to involve in the conversation.
She is also the owner of that Chianti Resto.
I ordered Mint Tea, and she ordered Tortilla for us. Frankly, I was completely full when I reached there.
I’ve promised to stay overnight at Susan’s place, in Kelapa Gading. So after emptied my cup, finished my tortilla, I excused myself.
Neneng had arranged taxi for me—what a compliment!—after several bye bye and cheek to cheek kisses, off I went to Kelapa Gading.
It was Friday, and rush hour, so it’s expected traffic jam.
Was ok, I put my most confidence look—as if I know the way to that place—to ease my mind from all that freaky stories about taxi in Jakarta.
Then after around 45 minutes—it was quick!—I reached Susan’s house.
Susi was there too, companying Susan while Susilo—Susan’s husband—was in other town.
We had a lo~ng talk just like before, from work, life, stupid incidents, food, illness, our mutual friends, etc etc.
Later we moved from living room to Susan’s room, while waiting for Eka, Susi’s brother—why then this blog sounds complicated?—around midnight, her mobile rang, it was her brother, outside the house. He was just back from meeting old friends.
I was in my pj so I refused to go out and greet him, I just waved to him when Susan opened the door.
‘Tomorrow morning, I greet you properly~’ I said jokingly.
I checked my mobile, was sending several SMS to Sari, asking for her condition, and answering my Mom’s SMS.
After short talked with Susan, I was lost in the conversation…as usual, fell asleep.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

een andere gewone dag

It is really hot today.
Went to office early in the morning, as usual, but have no passion to work.
Yet, need to prepare something for Dimas to work on.
Back home for lunch, I got a card in my mailbox.
Poststamp: Mannheim, card with Heidelberg picture. From the handwriting, it must be Wolfgang.
es ist wirklich schön, danke!

View accross the Neckar toward the historic centre of Heidelberg,
including Heidelberg Castle in the background
"...on this card, you can see where I live, it's in the middle of the right piece"

Then in the afternoon, went to get my train ticket.

tomorrow will go for Jakarta, have appointment with Andrea, now...I hope there's no more changes.

Got a haircut, I just sat and said, "I need new hairstyle"...knip knip...there...

new hair cut, I love it, short and me to stay away from blow-dryer.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

another fast day

went to office early in the morning,
passed by Kriste, a bakery, picked up some stuffed bread for breakfast.
Finishing The Age of Reason, after couple of months ignoring it...
How I wish that I won't do the same thing as Mathieu has done in that story.

Day passed faster then before, maybe loads of work pushed it faster.

Dimas--the new employee--works really well, so does Achie. She will be graduated tomorrow.
I'm glad--so far--having them in our office.

Having dinner at Sop Kaki Sapi, then I drove back home.

Uploaded some forgotten pictures to before chose some of them to animate my blogs.

now listening to a friend, wishing her the best solution for her issue...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

up beat

It's been few days rushing to office every morning.
There is new employee since Monday, his name is Dimas.
Helping me now with the Samarinda project.

Everyone is busy...

Submitted an abstract for conference mAAn 2005 in Istanbul, entitled: Detangling Modernity
Wingkobabat friends--guys in Delft--donated for Aceh-Nias victims, thus I delivered it to Salvation Army-Bandung. Considering some issue on racism in help distribution in Aceh...I hate to mention this, and I'm not sure if it's true

trying so hard to keep awake with controlled emotion.

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag, Wolfgang~
Wünschen Sie Ihnen das ganzes Glück im Leben,
am allermeisten...gut vom Glück mit Ihren Prüfungen!

Friday, January 07, 2005

terug naar me

It’s good to be back…
After two days curbed in bed, I feel alive again today.
Woke up felt abit better, I chose to be ready for the day.
Went to office, on the way I was still dizzy…but whatever.
Morning was bit hard for me…computer screen seems too bright.
Went home for lunch, I was almost tempted to go back to bed…
Luckily not,
Back to work, I said, then went for some vitamins, back to work,
And now I’m in my prime condition again!!!

It’s good to be Healthy, believe me~

Calling Pepper around midnight, it's her birthday.
Haven't talked to her since the last time she missed her flight to London, and left my door at Roland Holstlaan 209, after saying goodbye to me.
It was just like yesterday...

Gellukig Verjaardag, schatje!

Thursday, January 06, 2005

niks om te schrijven

Second day in the bed.
Yesterday was even worse.
But this morning I manage to go for work, at least till lunch time.
Thus, nothing much to write today,
Just a bit ill…

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

ja..ja..ik ben terug...

Yesterday I just arrived in Bandung, through a quite long journey,
3 hrs [with extra half hour delay] flight, Makassar-Jakarta,
30 minutes waiting...
45 minutes bus from airport to train station, Gambir.
another wait for 30 minutes,
3,5 hrs by train to Bandung.
which finally I arrived around 6:00 PM.

Victor picked me up at station,
his family dinner was in the plan,
until a phone call came. the birthday girl had blister...dinner was cancelled..
woof...frankly, I was thankful...oh, not for the blister..ppplleeaasssee...but for the cancelation.

thus, we went for a relax dinner [ year dinner...we said] at 'Rumah Nenek' resto..
first was nice.

went back home, completely exhausted I plunged on my bed.

today is back-to-work day.
several miscommunication started the day, terrible..but we managed.
then just back from office, i wrote this blog...

puff...long day, but still ok...

feel a bit dizzy, I hope I won't catch cold.

het is altijd moeilijk goed te communiceren, wanneer de emotie en de logica worden gemengd

Sunday, January 02, 2005

eind van een lange rust

It's the last day of my stay in Makassar.
Tomorrow my flight will be at 10:55.
I bought some coffee for office in Bandung; Oky and Nani asked some, too.
Also mom's cookies [chocolate chips and sultana...], four jars of them...
Lucky enough I didn't bring too much goodies from Bandung to here,
since everytime I went back from Makassar, my stuff is always doubled.
Oh..another nice things, Mom handed me her hip vintage shoes...
too bad in computer here I don't install Hello! so no picture for now.

thus, after church this morning, I was trying to pack everything into my tiny suitcase...
and voila~ I made it...
Well, there are still a pack of selai kaya [also mom's recipe] and my toilletries. But they will manage...

Ugh...vacation is almost ended...heading working days ahead.
Goodie, after long rest, I think it's time to heat up again.

uh oh...just remembered...Tante Dien asked for gogos...hmmm..should find way to pack them in as well!

werd opgevuld, Ik moet sommige van dit gewicht nu verminderen

Saturday, January 01, 2005

wesen jullie goedheid

Today is receiving email from old friends day.
Got email from Wolfgang, a German friend i met in Taize...
Hörfähigkeit von Ihnen ist immer nett
And another from Ivon, a strong girl I met in Delft...
I was wondering how she was doing, and voila...her email popped in.
She sounds fine, i'm glad to hear that.
Asli Von, gua seneng banget dapat email loe, akhirnya tau juga loe gimana kabarnya...
nanti balesnya pas udah di bandung ye..!

I wonder how's Sandy's doing as well...
and many other friends...which I've remembered within this day
well, no news means good news.

Hence, I just wish all the goodness follow all my good friends,
Though I haven't heard from most of them,
wish them well within this new year.

een nieuwe jaar

well ok, it's new year...again. It's time to review the things in passing year...

candy addiction,
rollercoaster moods,
struggling final work,
supporting family,
good friends in Delft,
new friend in Taize,
15 days in Italy,
unbearable goodbyes

new stages in Bandung,
new works...
new life...

playing between black and white...

attempts on decision making,

and again,
life is new chances to play within.

Happy New Year 2005!

Spinning 'round, in a spell
It's hard to leave this carrousel
'Round and 'round
And 'round and 'round
[Still They Ride by Journey]