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Nothing really special today, Just got diarrhoea… Might be caused the weather…it’s been raining four couple days. Tell me something about marriage, Do you have any clue what actually is it? I mean, of course I know that institution, But can you help me describe its difference with relationship before marriage? Once I argued a friend that said status as girlfriend to wife soon changes everything.. What? Which changes? Scale of affection? Tell me about it…convince me! I doubt and become apathy towards what so called marriage. What is the value of relationship then? If it’s should be reduced by what called marriage? Of course, in whatever kind of relationship, Before or through marriage, [read my lips…BEFORE TOO!] These two people should melt their interest, characters, hatreds, dislikes, tendencies, minds and thoughts…or maybe not melt, but more on…discuss it. Without taking them for granted, more with efforts… But tell me… Why is it become so difficult as pe...

nothing is black or white... greyish is what exists on this world. How you measure sincereness? How a person is not commodifying others? How to read between the lines on TV news? Being critical and paranoia are differed by a thin grey line... when a person say "it's for humanity" does it mean "it's for my popularity"? nothing is EVER black or white GREYish is...

Yesterday I wonder if people do care, If there is heart still. Today seems everyone is making a little move, Which collate into big rumble. Within oneday a TV station has collected 26 million Rupiah [around 2.600.000 USD] for catastrophe in Aceh. oh dear..what i meant was 26.000.000.000 rupiah [that's not 'million'='milyard' but 'trillion'??ach damn, no wonder, sphixku misunderstood...] Hereby I wrote down the post just incase you are moved to give a hand: PT.Kompas Media Nusantara/DKK-Bencana Aceh Bank BNI Jakarta Kota No. 001-007-55555-1001 or Bank BCA Gajah Mada No.012-3016600 They also mentioned urgent demands of deadbody bags, medical gloves and clothes for the victims. In case you are around Jakarta, or thinking to post it: PT. Metro TV Address: Pilar Mas Raya Kavling A-D Kedoya-Jakarta Barat INDONESIA I know most of us doubting the honest management and distribution of these helps. These address I posted are trusworth...

Mass graves are being dug even as families search desperately for missing relatives and soldiers recover bodies washed high into trees. [BBC Online] A friend in Shanghai sent me email, sounded worry she asked if I was ok, after non-stop news on BBC and CNN reporting earthquake in Asia recently. A friend from Istanbul beep me thru MSN, asking same question… An ex tutor did that last nite, out of Rotterdam. I’m blessed so many people do care about me. I am fine, dear friends…. My last two days blogs expressed it really well…while in fact now, I’m half feeling guilty—or should I say…indecently happy and jolly here in other part of Indonesia, while deathtoll of tsunami aftermath still not finalized. Another friend out of Canada asked me, how do people react here, in Indonesia. Do they really care, or only government is panicking? Stunned, I realized that as I am in Indonesia, I hardly hear any panic reaction nor chilling BBC description. We just know that it happens…but we...

Makassar is full of good food... My home is one of it No wonder now my sis keep mentioning our weight...but as life is fun and food is wonderful....I'm carefree with my weight for now! We had big dinner just now. My Dad drove us [mom, my sis, my niece and my granny] to Apong for wonderful seafood. I had the pics with me...and gosh, it's so so so cheap~! sphinxku...i bet u'll drool hahahaha.... My sis and Vivienne will leave for Jakarta tomorrow, while today for the first time, I can handle my beloved cranky niece. Oh I think I'm missing her already.. These first 2 days in Makassar were complete rest for me. I slept more then 12 hours a day. NO EMBARRASEMENT! i'm glad I did... Now, I can't sleep...hahahaa...recharged again! well well.... oh wow.. I'm just too full with seafood...maybe that's why oh well...life is just too good to be wasted... you may drool....all for only Rp. 120.000,00 [at APONG] or around 12 eur......

I'm in Makassar with the whole family... it's fun...suddenly I feel completely relax. Last night we spent our Xmas eve together, specially with my 97 years old granny. As I said, Christmas is always fun. mijn mama en papa [my dad's eldest sister and bro in law] Mom prepared so many nice foods... Christmas dish...Ayam Kodok [stuffed chicken] ...mom's recipe since we were kids.. My aunt and uncle from Waddinxveen called, made me missing Delft. Merry Christmas everyone... I believe for love is still there inside each humankind, waiting to be released vivienne's shoes, feeding Sinterklaas' horses... exchanging with present... ach, I wish I was 6 again... PS: just finished a book by George Orwell, "Animal Farm"...

I always love Christmas, as most people do. I’ll be in Makassar for 10 days, spending holidays with family, specially with my 97 years old granny. In fact, she really made us going back home this time. She bought tickets for us! And just delivered it thru airmail woohoo!!!! Last two days were busy to find meaningful yet pocket friendly cadeautje for my family…and finding out how Christmas has been super-commodified! Last night was dinner with Santi and Eko at Atmosphere..more then fun. We had small dishes…and big pitcher of beer… Long talk and discuss many things…Santi is doing research on Chinese Community in Bandung…interesting. Remember the competition I wrote down before? We are one of the 5 finalists and last Monday, we presented in front of the juror… Anyway…today is the result announcement, we should attend the ceremony tonight thus I’ll go to Jakarta two hours from now! Need to pick up Peter and Nani at Ruku [Rumah Buku] off we go to Jakarta. Plan to pick up m...

A friend and a teacher told me... never attached, emotionally, mentally nor physically to anybody If there's emotion it's fine..but with controlled amount. .... are we human? if yes....we have feelings, right? then, where is respect? or can a friend just be thrown away... can a friend be justified as a person who you CALL not to LISTEN TO? ... not emotionally attached... but implying human value... ... am I too much?

First…I DID write something few minutes ago, directly on my blog site, but then by the time I was uploading, IE5 crashed. It’s happened not only this time thou… Ok, whatever. I just back from my trip to Singapore and Kualalumpur and really looking forward to upload pictures and stories out of those days. But, being away from office for 10 days, pile of tasks has been awaited. Well yeah, it’s nothing like other people who works in office, from 9 to 5, but more on responsibilities I should take as one of shareholders of the company. Sounds cool? Well maybe yes, maybe not. Three of us; Victor, Robert and me; run this studio, for interior and architecture since year 2002, just couple months before I left for Delft. Until now, thanks God, it still exists thou not in easy way, and believe it or not…we never really had a registered name for it. Thus, last night we decided a name that eventually has been used informally by us for 1,5 years. Before it was only medio. Now, sinc...

the services ~may they'll be blessed by God~ I love the details of bride's gown happy couple Ina and Lisa, two ladies that were busy by me baby's on board! with Pak JW and Bu Maggie another happy couple...super kocak! another another happy couple eat eat eat.... the gank of UNPAR, chief is in white shirt and grey hair...

look who's there too erika suddenly showed up in the bus~ everyone over chinatown Welcome to Chinatown~ a superclean chinatown... Chinatown MRT, just loved the scene waiting for the train to Dhobi Gaut; Das-Rizal-me, posing in our tired looks Dhobi Gaut MRT station, they said, it's the most connected station in Singapore [according to Errol Ng, the guy from LRT]

Hainam Chicken Rice, Errol treated us... another hospitality treats from our host superkid, taken by Jeff Hou the infamous beancurd shop... beer as closing ceremony

It was the first day, and we had dinner together at a marina...i forgot the name. I presented on second day, so I did not drink that much, most of time listening to many others, get to know more people...interesting. place where we had our dinner, chic~ Simon, Kigawa, Rizal and me dinner table mates; only remember some of them: Goto is the most Left, and Das was next to me, next to Das was Craig

Okay...finally I can really write something from my Singapore-KL-Singapore Trip... on the first part of my stay in Singapore, most of my time was with Sari and Shanti, until Sari left for Delft on 5th of December... It's fun...I stayed at Shanti [Sari's twin sister] and Eko House. Here I posted some pictures....with short notes...[am I too lazy or what?] House where I stayed on the first 5 days, it is Sari by the corridor The family where I bunked in, Eko [the Daddy], Santi [the Mommy]-Sari [the Aunty]-Sari and Santi's Mom, and Tirta [the little baby]...I couldn't find Judi picture...the eldest boy. Boat Quay: It was girl's day out...we [Shanti, Sari and me] went to BoatQuay for a drink or two, and chitchat... nice revitalisation project...but too steril in my point of view the Twins, can you tell which is who? it's underpass from a metro station...reminds me of metro station in Paris and Rotterdam....what a big difference...but i...

things happened. as time continue to move on. nothing stand still. even me. sometimes the ambience is just too fuzzy. makes me tipsy... things occured. while no one can stop them. not you, me or anyone. things are gone. and there's empty space here. what to do? how to replace? but memories remain. like it or not. no exact time when to come. just give tipsy feeling. fuzzy. but not blur. crystal clear with a certain mixture. what to do. how to judge? the ambience is just too strong. different for each place. but this time it is just too strong. fuzzy. yet clear. complicated? maybe. ["hoe en waarom?"onophoudelijk vragend het leven...is het verkeerd?]